urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazyskot crazyskot crazyskot 2006-05-23T17:02:07Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:crazyskot:439 2006-05-23T17:00:41Z 2006-05-23T17:02:07Z lover playing guitar Well after 33 years of life experiences I have decided to share them with anyone who wishes to read them. I'll provide you with some back ground information. I was raised in a single parent Christian household and had good morals planted in me which is the only reason i'm still here today. As soon as I hit the teens I hit the drugs as well. i dropped out of school at 16. I i stopped going to church and Christian youth groups and chose to be a member of one of the biggest street gangs in Melbourne. At 13 i was doing burglaries, car theft, graffiti, smoking pot. I soon realized that there was money to be made in drugs. Living in the same suburb all my life i knew alot of people, so i decided sell pot. a few years later i've got quite a profitable business. My mum died late 90”s leaving me with nothing to live for and nothing to lose. Greed soon took over and i wanted more so i started selling pills and doing the nightclub scene i was open for business 24/7 and i was doing a lot of speed i was sleeping maybe twice a week if that, i kept that up for about 18 months until i was apprehended by the police and taken to a psych ward for assessment. i was diagnosed with drug induced psychosis.. surprise surprise.. anyway 2 weeks later back out of hospital and back into the game. 6 months later the same thing cops took me to a psych ward again for assessment, same result. Anyway after 5 admissions i decided to give up the game, but it was hard coz everywhere i went people would hit me up 4 drugs and i couldn't say no to easy money. In 2002 i decided to move to queensland. I stayed up here till cup day 2004 when the mother of my 5 year old son asked me to move back to melbourne and get back with her so i did. I stayed with her for 3 months. In that 3 months i developed another heroin addiction and my girlfriend robbed me of basically everything i had including my dignity. I stayed there for my son but i was losing everything financially and mentally. I called my old boss Sharon in qld and told her I needed to come back to qld and i needed a job, she said i'll get you a job and i'll pick you up at the airport and you can stay with me. On the Friday morning I flew up to queensland got on the piss with Sharon. The following night I also got on the piss with Sharon she said my flat mate will be home soon. I asked what she did for work and she said she’s a psych nurse I panicked b/c I wasn’t well mentally and paranoia kicked in. anyway her flat mate came home and I was expecting a sour faced power tripping nurse to walk in the door but what walked in the door was a gorgeous graceful lady who once she spoke had me in total awe. Here was this beautiful, intelligent, sexy lady who I was infatuated with. We spoke all night on gas the next day my mate Bazza came over and I told him I was going to marry that nurse I had only known her 24 hours. Beside her going to work we were inseparable for the first few months. <br /> 18 months later were still together like all couples we have our ups and downs but we’re still together.<br /> I was a hard hearted, anger filled, evil young man, but with the love of a good woman and a helping hand from god, I am learning about the true me, the one who loves nature, loves life and people. this girl has transformed my out look on life and hey I’m a late learner but what I’ve learnt is the power of love and the being positive. I used to be so arrogant and rude but I love watching the reactions of strangers reactions to my kind words.<br />I think I was a hippy all my life I just didn’t know it. Anyway gotta go spend time with my girl……. I love my ash.