| endtroducing myself |
[May. 24th, 2006|12:42 am] |
Well after 33 years of life experiences I have decided to share them with anyone who wishes to read them. I'll provide you with some back ground information. I was raised in a single parent Christian household and had good morals planted in me which is the only reason i'm still here today. As soon as I hit the teens I hit the drugs as well. i dropped out of school at 16. I i stopped going to church and Christian youth groups and chose to be a member of one of the biggest street gangs in Melbourne. At 13 i was doing burglaries, car theft, graffiti, smoking pot. I soon realized that there was money to be made in drugs. Living in the same suburb all my life i knew alot of people, so i decided sell pot. a few years later i've got quite a profitable business. My mum died late 90”s leaving me with nothing to live for and nothing to lose. Greed soon took over and i wanted more so i started selling pills and doing the nightclub scene i was open for business 24/7 and i was doing a lot of speed i was sleeping maybe twice a week if that, i kept that up for about 18 months until i was apprehended by the police and taken to a psych ward for assessment. i was diagnosed with drug induced psychosis.. surprise surprise.. anyway 2 weeks later back out of hospital and back into the game. 6 months later the same thing cops took me to a psych ward again for assessment, same result. Anyway after 5 admissions i decided to give up the game, but it was hard coz everywhere i went people would hit me up 4 drugs and i couldn't say no to easy money. In 2002 i decided to move to queensland. I stayed up here till cup day 2004 when the mother of my 5 year old son asked me to move back to melbourne and get back with her so i did. I stayed with her for 3 months. In that 3 months i developed another heroin addiction and my girlfriend robbed me of basically everything i had including my dignity. I stayed there for my son but i was losing everything financially and mentally. I called my old boss Sharon in qld and told her I needed to come back to qld and i needed a job, she said i'll get you a job and i'll pick you up at the airport and you can stay with me. On the Friday morning I flew up to queensland got on the piss with Sharon. The following night I also got on the piss with Sharon she said my flat mate will be home soon. I asked what she did for work and she said she’s a psych nurse I panicked b/c I wasn’t well mentally and paranoia kicked in. anyway her flat mate came home and I was expecting a sour faced power tripping nurse to walk in the door but what walked in the door was a gorgeous graceful lady who once she spoke had me in total awe. Here was this beautiful, intelligent, sexy lady who I was infatuated with. We spoke all night on gas the next day my mate Bazza came over and I told him I was going to marry that nurse I had only known her 24 hours. Beside her going to work we were inseparable for the first few months.
18 months later were still together like all couples we have our ups and downs but we’re still together.
I was a hard hearted, anger filled, evil young man, but with the love of a good woman and a helping hand from god, I am learning about the true me, the one who loves nature, loves life and people. this girl has transformed my out look on life and hey I’m a late learner but what I’ve learnt is the power of love and the being positive. I used to be so arrogant and rude but I love watching the reactions of strangers reactions to my kind words.
I think I was a hippy all my life I just didn’t know it. Anyway gotta go spend time with my girl……. I love my ash. |
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